It happened again.  You know.  The emotional outburst that lets the ugly cry come out?  Yeah. That.  I have decided that anything can trigger it...even things I'm happy about...

You see, they hired a new youth/associate pastor yesterday.  He will be the one taking over Cam's job when we leave.  They are truly perfect for our church and our youth, I think!  But, the thing is, I love those kids.  So much more than I thought possible.  The thought of someone else getting to be close to them while I can't be stirs up my heart and makes the tears flow.  I lost it when they voted last night at church.  It wasn't one of my finer moments to be seen practically running out of the sanctuary with tears dripping down my face while they stood at the front surrounded by youth waiting to be welcomed.  Ugh.  Embarrassing.  Of course, I was followed by other crying youth...just hard.  I didn't want them to see that though.  I want those kids to know how very much I genuinely like the new people.  I just know we would be great friends if circumstances were different!  And honestly, we probably will be great friends for the month that we are all serving together here!

Today my eyes feel like grit and my house is scattered with junk from shelves and a desk that have been taken away.  You know all the junk that doesn't have a "home" so you throw it in a cabinet?  That is the junk piled on the floor.  I don't know what to do with it!  And the girls toys are in my only laundry basket because all the other baskets are sold and the toy box is gone.  It is driving me nuts, and I'm not sure how to fix it!

This moving to another country business is not easy!