Bruised

As I sat down last night to study the lesson I was to teach this morning, the Lord not so gently bit my head off about my attitude.  We learned about the Sermon on the Mount, which isn't anything new, but certainly something I needed to hear right now.  As we draw closer to "move time", I am beginning to realize just how much I have to let go of.  I know it is just stuff, earthly possessions, but it is still MY stuff.  I struggle with it.  I like stuff.  I especially like my stuff.  Things I have collected and refinished and filled with memories...they aren't more important than Jesus, and I can't take them to Heaven, so I must let them go.  I also realized that all the things I want and spend time looking for online, isn't a godly use of my time.  That one was hard.  I had to stop and dwell right here and reconcile just how wrong I have been.  The Bible called me an idolator!  How dare it!  But it is true.  I have put my quest for wants above my quest for Christ.  It all just really spoke to me in a new way...in way that I needed to hear.  Sometimes I think my teaching a class isn't about my teaching them at all...it is all about learning myself...

For the idolators eagerly seek all these things (what we will eat, drink, and wear), and your Heavenly Father knows that you need them.  Matthew 6:32