Chloe would have been nine today.
It is hard to describe the feelings that surround this day. There is so much joy because she was my first child. She is the first little girl I ever fell head over heels in love with in an instant. She was perfect for us in every way. Then there is the grief that grips me and rips my heart out. It hasn't lessened. It hasn't eased. It hurts beyond hurt, and I HATE it.
This year Gracie asked me if we could adopt her a big sister. It felt like someone stabbed me and twisted the knife over and over. She HAS a big sister. If only she was still here to be the big sister. It just. hurts.
We just let her balloons go...that is when it hit me. That is ALL I can do.
Ugh.
3 comments:
*tears*
Love you Steph. She was a perfect precious little girl.
Thought about you several times yesterday...I have nothing to say to make it better. We love you!
I thought about you a lot yesterday. I hope you felt all wrapped up and cuddled in the arms of our Father.
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