Guilt and Excitement

Today we went to PaulAnn. It was everything that we would want in a church. All that we are looking for. Other than the EXTREME guilt I felt for being there. I didn't imagine how it would feel to be going to a church where a lot of old Veribest members go. I didn't think I would feel like a traitor. Then, I looked around and saw a group of people that have left Veribest. I felt bad all over again. It just didn't feel right! I don't know if this is normal or not because I have never left my Dad's church to go somewhere else, but surely it will go away right? As we pulled into the parking lot, we saw some people that we had just found out left Dad's church. I just got sick to my stomach. We sat in the car debating whether or not we should go in, go back to Veribest, or go somewhere else. There is such a battle going on in my heart right now!! I am not sure what we are going to do. We really enjoyed the service. the people. the feeling of being WANTED and not just needed. It was really awesome. We had people begging us to come to small groups with them. Two different couples... We were invited to come to a SuperBowl thing tonight. Do you know how long it has been since someone from church invited us somewhere because they genuinely wanted us there? And this was the first Sunday we visited. Did I mention that Clay, the worship pastor, came and sat with us? We were welcomed...