Let me start with yesterday. I was on an emotional roller coaster with Cameron being gone. I got to church around 8:35 ish and promptly turned into a puddle of tears. Every little thing made me well up. In Sunday School I was searching the room for something, anything, to take my mind off of the lesson...we were talking about how God puts certain events in our lives to build our faith. Then my eyes settled on the calendar, and I realized that this week, for the first time in 6 years, the DAYS were the same as they were the week Chloe died. I can tell you with an uncanny accuracy exactly what I was doing and what was going on that whole week. Mix that in with the emotions of the Twin Tower Attacks, and I am a basket case!
While losing Chloe was horrific, the memories I hold of her are so sweet. I have to admit though, that the memories of her birth are much more pleasant than the ones that will pop up in my mind on Firday. That is the hardest day of the year for me...as you all probably know, I am visual, and I can recall things in detail that have happened in the past. That day, those memories, are things that a mother NEVER wants to re-live or see again. So...keep us in your prayers this week...we need it so much more than you can imagine...
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I will be praying for you all this week. We love you!
Steph, I have ALWAYS said that I could never imagine going through what you guys had to go through!! You are THE strongest person I know. I have always said this. You know she is happy up there and watching over all of you guys. Watching all of her sisters on a daily basis. Still to this day that funeral has to be THE saddest and most emotional funeral I have ever been to. I feel for you and will keep you in my prayers. I promise!! Luv ya, Steph!!
You and your husband are in my prayers, Stephanie.
I remember that week so clearly myself. I remember that you drove back to Fort Worth (home at that time) from San Angelo on Tuesday Sept. 11. I was so nervous for you to drive with that sweet, precious baby. We met up that night and attended the Church Women's Ministry - Heart & Home Meeting. We had our kids in the church nursery. I also remember going to KMart to get Chloe's picture taken at the Olen Mills. We couldn't wait for the pictures to come in.....This is a very emotional week for you guys & our whole family. We love ya'll and pray you receive daily strength that only our Loving Father can provide.
Stephanie, you guys WILL be in our prayers. We love all of you.
So......what are we doing Saturday???? I was looking at your menu! I'm always the last to hear about things!!! :) :) But really what are we doing? Love Shanna
Just praying and thinking about you all this week.
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