HURT

SOMETIMES WE HURT PEOPLE UNINTENTIONALLY.  I HAVE DONE THIS.  THE THING IS, THOUGH, IS THAT I HAVE BEEN PRAYING ABOUT THE SITUATION, AND WHILE I CAUSED HURT, IT ISN'T SOMETHING THAT I CAN CHANGE.  IT BREAKS MY HEART.  I FEEL STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF TWO ROCKS AND I CAN'T REALLY GO EITHER WAY BECAUSE IF I TURN, SOMEONE IS GOING TO FEEL IT.  THEN, THIS MORNING, THE LORD DIRECTLY ANSWERED MY PRAYERS FOR CLARITY.  I HAVE BEEN DOING A STUDY ON THE JEALOUS HEART, WHICH MEANS I HAVE BEEN STUDYING KING SAUL.  WELL, THE EPIPHANY CAME TO ME AS I WAS READING HOW SAUL FELT EVERYONE WAS AGAINST HIM, WHEN REALLY NO ONE WAS.  YOU SEE, THE JEALOUS HEART SEES THINGS THAT AREN'T THERE.  IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS TAKING SIDES, AND THE THING IS, IS THAT PEOPLE MAY APPEAR TO, BUT THEY AREN'T!  KING SAUL WAS TRYING TO KILL DAVID BECAUSE HE THOUGHT DAVID WAS TRYING TO TAKE HIS KINGDOM.  JONATHON (SAUL'S SON, DAVID'S BEST FRIEND) WAS STUCK RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE.  HE WARNED DAVID THAT SAUL WAS GOING TO KILL HIM, SO SAUL IMMEDIATELY THINKS THAT HIS OWN SON IS AGAINST HIM.  WHEN, IN REALITY, JONATHON LOVES HIS DAD.  HE LOVES HIS BEST FRIEND.  HIS ACTIONS WERE PURE, NOT MOTIVATED TO HURT HIS DAD.  HE ISN'T CHOOSING SIDES, HE IS SHOWING LOVE.  THE PROBLEM WAS NEVER THAT JONATHON TOOK DAVID'S SIDE OVER HIS DAD'S SIDE.  THE PROBLEM WAS THAT SAUL WAS EATEN UP WITH A JEALOUS RAGE AND NEEDED TO TEND TO HIS HEART.

ANYWAY, I JUST WANTED TO SHARE MY ANSWERED PRAYER.  I LOVE WHEN GOD JUST BANGS ME ON THE HEAD WITH WHAT MY HEART NEEDS MOST.  IT DOESN'T MEAN THINGS ARE FIXED OR BETTER OR THAT MY ACTIONS DIDN'T HURT SOMEONE I LOVE.  IT JUST MEANS THAT THE PEACE I FELT AND FEEL, ISN'T MY OWN PEACE.  IT IS PEACE THAT I AM ACTING THE WAY THE LORD DIRECTED ME TO.