I quit.

I'm not sure my desire to quit homeschooling a child has been greater than it is at this moment.  I know there will be hard days, but I feel like this has been a hard YEAR with Faith.  Teaching her to read is about  to do me in.  She really doesn't have too much of an interest.  Although, when she reads something, she is beyond proud.  That tells me she likes the reward of her work.  Today is killing me though.  It took her an hour to read 7 pages.  This wouldn't be such a big deal, but she needs me to sit with her and watch her sound EACH letter out or she wanders off.  So, while I am sitting (in another room because she can't do distractions) with her, I can't be helping Gracie.  The balance just isn't there, and I have no idea what to do!!  She is working on spelling.  She has to spell the words that she read this morning.  Welllllllll...spelling is always kind of like someone repeatedly kicking you in the shin.  It just keeps hurting.  She cries.  I have to restrain myself from screaming (an honestly, shamefully, I fail at this sometimes).  She stares at the paper like the letters will appear or something all on their own.  Umm...they aren't going to.  What is weird though, is that I can give her a page of words and have her circle the word I say and she doesn't even have to think about it!  She circles it and almost always get it correct.  She doesn't have to sound each letter out...she just reads it.  I cannot understand why she can do it in list form but not by herself in the book.  I just don't know what to do.  Sometimes I think what I am asking of her is too hard.  She doesn't "push"well.   When she gets mentally overtaxed, she checks out.  She cries.  She can't continue.  And I admit, some of her words are HARD for a kindergartner.  And you can't hear the letters when you say the words (i.e.  minks, elks, etc.  they sound like "x").  Anywho.  That is my gripe today.  Tomorrow will be different I hope.  :)