One of those moments.

In the car today, Ellie and Faith were sweetly professing how they are best friends. Over and Over. Finally Gracie asked Ellie if she could please be quiet. Ellie replied, "nooooooo. this is what best friends do! they talllllkk (said in a sing-songy giggly voice).

At first I was warm and fuzzy and thought how great it was that they are best friends. Then it hit me. Gracie wasn't included in that. Then I had a flashback to 6 months ago when Gracie asked me if we could adopt her a big sister. Then I had that moment of anger because she HAD a big sister. Then I progressed to tearing up and missing my firstborn and wondering why.

I hate it when the cutest, lightest moments turn into dark ugly clouds that bring back floods of memories. :( And really, they are all great friends. Faith even asked Gracie if she wanted to be BFFL's with them about an hour after this conversation. I am pretty sure Gracie declined the offer though...haha!