Well, today marks the end of a chapter for me. Today is the last day I have to ever fear SIDS (unless the hilarious happens and I get pregnant again). Today is the last time I will have a "baby". Today is the day I must think of weaning in a more serious way. Today Ellie turns one. It is such a happy thing for us to have our children reach this milestone because the alternative is a Mama's worst nightmare, but I am so sad that this chapter is ending! I am not ready!! I love babies. I love having babies. I just can't face it. I am in serious denial. I don't want to get ready for her party (Summer--y'all should come...call me). I don't want to even think about it. But I did. Think about her birthday. I woke up and made breakfast and sang to her and lit a candle. I have worked all day on teaching her to hold up her little finger to say she is one. I have poured out love on her all day (I let her nurse whenever she felt like it too! hehehe). But inside I am dying. I have tears that are choking me. I want her to stay little. I want her to forever be my little baby. I really do.
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I am so sorry I didn't call you guys yesterday on Ellie's birthday! I haven't been feeling very well, but that's no excuse! It is such a bitter-sweet moment. On one hand you must be relieved (I am) to have her reach 1 but on the other hand it is a chapter over and another beginning for your littlest girl. Give her a kiss for me and tell her that Shawna loves her.
Oh, Stephanie! I know EXACTLY how you feel. My last one is growing up SO FAST!!! Hang in there though. You and your precious family have lots of wonderful years to make lots of wonderful memories. "Happy 1st birthday, Ellie!!!"
I don't really have any comforting words or anything. I'm not a mom and will never be, so I have no clue, not the slightest idea what your going through. I do know you are a great mom. I do know that you will always be there mom no matter how old they get. Ellie will always be your baby. The older she gets the more milestones that will be reached, and I suppose most of those will be bittersweet as well. You get to be there with Gracie, Faith and Ellie as they reach them all. You get to have new experiences and new milestones as they grow up. They will always need their mommy!
She will always be your little baby. That wonderful, "butterfly and kisses" feeling you have when you hold her and cuddle with her is a feeling you will always have. It never, never, ever goes away. Even when they are 21 and in Afghanistan! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIE!
why not have one more? Whats four? I can say that honestly even though one is gone two is just as fun! watching Taryn learn the basic steps of big girl life is so amazing. I know with Gracie and Faith you have seen so many personality traits grow! And it keeps getting better. I know what the milestone 1 is for your family. So I say just sit back a cry and enjoy ellie!!!! celebrate all the emotions to follow... they mean so much.
Ellie is ALREADY 1? How crazy is that!!
Steph, she will ALWAYS be your baby....no matter what!! Ellie will always the baby you can cuddle with and hold close.
Steph, just remember that you are lucky to have babies (or kids)!! :)
HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY, ELLIE!!!!!!!
Oh, hey, I forgot to ask, when is her Birthday party? If it is this weekend.....I am forced to work!! :( I have to work today, tomorrow, and ALL weekend. I would love to come, though!!
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