The blues

Our friends Hunter and Jennifer had a new baby boy on Wednesday, and it became real to me that we will NEVER again have the opportunity to experience that again. I am amazed at the joy we have with our three girls, and I really had decided to not have more, but realizing that I don't have the option anymore really truly broke my heart. I just want to sit down and have a good bawl about it all. Then I started to think about how blessed we are and about how so many of our friends and relatives aren't getting to have babies, and it broke my heart all over again into so many more pieces this time. I cannot imagine the feelings that you women have and the way it makes you feel when one more month passes that you didn't conceive. I am so sorry, and if there was anything I could do to give you a baby, I would do it. In a heartbeat. So I promise you (and you know who you are) that I will pray diligently for the Lord to give you a baby, whether that be a baby from your own womb or a baby that needs you to be his Mommy because his own cannot fill that role. Either way is wonderful and full of blessings, and I will get on my knees in the throne room of Christ and ask for that for you. I promise.